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Metatron (heaven_within) wrote,
@ 2008-06-22 00:11:00

Current mood:

melancholy

Bleeding Heart

[Private]
[Voice recording. The usually chipper, gentle voice is low and filled with sorrow and...guilt?]
I cannot make their decisions for them. I'm not meant to control them. Only guide them. But why are they doing the things they are choosing to? Destruction...

Destruction is not what we stand for. I need to show this to them somehow. I need someone for them to unite under. They would never simply do it for me, now. For surely they must hate me.

Metatron, who brought them to a realm that has caused them more pain than I imagined. Yet still, there is hope, isn't there? Metatron, when you look at yourself in the mirror... [A small, longing noise not unlike a sigh]

I would bear all of their pain, take their places for each trial, or endure Lucifer's torturous mind for them all. But in the end, they are the ones who have the freedom to choose so much and I... I do not have their freedom.

I want... Even if they hate me. It would be worth it, if somehow I could encourage them to make safer decisions...

Dear Lord, the Beloved Almighty, you chose me because of my love for all creatures, I know. But did you know that this would be a trial for me, as well...? I hope I can please you, Lord. I hope I can please those who followed me, as well.

It hurts so much to know what choices they have been making and to be aware of the pain they feel.

But even in that, there is hope. Most of them are altruistic in their natures - despite their choices they mean well, and in that there is always the potential to learn and grow. [Pained, hopeful chuckle followed by a sentence filled with despair.] I have failed them, haven't I...
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[Private to Asgard Only - this is received by each member as a little winged blue orb that flutters cutely close by to record their responses as well (these are still able to be noted as private to just Metatron or private to Asgard)]
[Voice recording - the usually chipper voice is unable to disguise the sad, disappointed tone behind his polite way of speaking.]

I would like to...speak with all of you. There are a number of strange things going on and i'm afraid that I must make note of them. I'm sure all of you are at least vaguely aware of the problems.

[Utterly sincere tone]I am truly sorry for all the pain any of you have experienced and any loss of security that you feel. However...

Asgard truly is a safe haven. As long as you are within its walls, my power will blanket all others. It won't take care of small injuries you cause by accident or bruises you may receive while sparring with another Asgardian, but no member of Niflheim may set foot within the walls of Asgard with a weapon, nor will my power allow them to injure you. Nor will my power allow another Asgardian to do any significant damage to any other Asgardian within Asgard's walls.
You are safe within this building. Though if you do get scratched or injured, you may always come to me for aid...

Why do those of you incapable of defending yourselves leave alone, knowing the danger? I cannot make your choices for you, and I certainly will not cage any of you within Asgard unless extreme circumstances arise, however...I beg of you all, please do not make decisions that lead you into dangerous territory.

I hope with all of my heart that we can become a group of people who can help each other in need and can pool our strengths. I beseech you to be more cautious when going out on your own - though to speak the full truth, it is utterly unwise to do so unless you have a way to take care of yourself.

I will not limit every person here to leaving Asgard only in groups of twos or more. Instead, I request that you remember your weaknesses as well as your strengths and make the appropriate decisions after some consideration.

The only time this war needs to take place is during the trials, not between them. You do not have to face them between the trials. They will try to weaken you for the trials. Is this not clear...?

Please, what do you need of me? Even I have rules I must obey, so I might not be able to provide what is asked...but I assure you, if it is within my abilities to do so, I will. So long as it will not promote risky, rash behavior.

That behavior simply needs to cease, as it has been shown repeatedly to not produce a worthwhile effect.

[OOC: I would like to note that Metatron IS aware of pretty much everything that's been going on, but that I as the player behind him may not have all the facts straight. If by some chance I make an error, could I be corrected OOCly instead of having it necessarily be "Metatron" who made the mistake in-game? I'm requesting this in advance, though I've been trying to look over all the threads.]

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	holylance 2008-06-22 11:33 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron] I can't help but think that parts of this announcement are aimed at me. [Small pause, Kain continues on in a slightly more weary tone of voice] I'll try my best not to face anyone between trials, alright? Just...cheer up a little. You sound so much like Cecil... [/Private] (Reply to this) (Thread)

heaven_within
2008-06-22 11:38 am UTC (link)

[Private to Kain]
It is aimed at everyone...so yes, i'm afraid even you. [Chuckle.] Forgive me, I did not intend to sound upset.

Truly, I do not mind if you fight, only...that you do not return horribly injured? Does that make sense?

You are free to make your own decisions. I only want to encourage everyone to be more cautious than they have been.

Nonetheless...thank you, Kain.
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holylance
2008-06-22 10:52 pm UTC (link)

You don't need to apologize. I imagine I'd be a little upset too if I was in your position.

...Ha. Well, I don't ever intend to return badly injured, but yes, I understand what you mean.

Yeah...I don't want to see anyone else hurt, either.

Don't worry about it.

((ooc: I just wanted to add, oh man this post was just as heart wrenching as I thought it would be. METATRON, STOP BEING SO NICE YOU MAKE ME FEEL BAD. ;___;))

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	Re: Private to Kain/Metatron heaven_within 2008-06-23 05:23 am UTC (link)
	Still...thank you, Kain. For deciding to come here with me when I asked. You may have lost that fight, but I have faith in you. You have talent that will shine here, i'm certain. It glows inside you, you know. I can see it. [ooc: XD I'm glad it was, I wanted it to be - though sorry for causing the ;_;ness at the same time!] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to Kain/Metatron holylance 2008-06-23 09:24 am UTC (link)
	You don't need to thank me for that. It's what any decent person would have done...right? I--really? That...thank you, Metatron. That's good to hear. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	franksunderland 2008-06-22 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron]I... agree with you. Kain and L have already been cautioning... everyone. But not everyone is going to agree.. but you know that. I'm concerned for Miss Elliot... and Alessa... but I should mind my own business I suppose.[/Private] (Reply to this) (Thread)

heaven_within
2008-06-23 05:32 am UTC (link)

[Private to Frank] It is never wrong to care for others, Frank. The souls of human beings shine most beautifully when they are caring for others. Feeling concern for Miss Elliot and Miss Alessa is no crime.

I'm certain that they appreciate having someone who cares the way you do.

You don't have to mind your own business...and I find that usually, it isn't what's best for people regardless.[/Private]

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	franksunderland 2008-06-23 08:03 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron]Well, that's kind of you to say. Back home, people would just as soon a superintendent mind his own business but maybe here... it's all right to care about people.[/Private] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-24 02:57 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Frank] It's definitely acceptable to care about others here, Frank. I assure you...if it was a crime, I would be heavily guilty of it already.[/Private] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	luke_lawliet 2008-06-22 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Bullet-proof vests Discreet voice-activated tracking devices ...for everyone, if possible. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 06:14 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Those sound wise...hmm. I believe I will make some and present them soon. Thank you for your suggestions, Ryuzaki. [ooc: Metatron will make a post once he's prepared these vests and devices - for once, it's not instant. Sorry folks - he (/the mod) has to figure something out with the devices, first...xD] (Reply to this) (Parent)

synapse_glitch
2008-06-22 09:53 pm UTC (link)

I.... what is this strange little thing? *the sound of light tapping can be heard before a startled noise is made in response to the speaking*

Oh! I'm sorry, I didn't realize you spoke strange little object. The word Asgard I sort of understand, and it is good to know it is a safe place as many have written within the book, but all of these other things I'm a tad clueless about. People going alone? Where are they going alone to? And why would they choose danger over safety if they can not protect themselves?

Trials? I'm afraid I don't understand what sort of trials are being done or why. And the idea of a war because of them doesn't sound at all, uh... what's the word?

*a few audible hand movements and a couple of half-mumbled words can he heard*

Pleasant! That's the word I was looking for. It doesn't exactly sound very pleasant. Oh, do forgive me, I'm being rude aren't I! My name is Glitch by the way....

(ooc: yes, Glitch is pretty much clueless and rambling. Sorry for that one Metatron)

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heaven_within
2008-06-23 07:26 am UTC (link)

Ah, anywhere outside Asgard is a dangerous place because those from Niflheim may come and endanger the welfare of us. They are not unlike the Longcoats, I am afraid. Equally capable of the cruelty Longcoats give.

The trials are tests that those of Asgard and Niflheim face. Think of it as an organized way of fighting each other without...undue bloodshed. Periodically, a challenge is given and Asgard and Niflheim must struggle to win it. I'm certain those in Asgard will do there best, so do not fear.

If you forget any of this, the blue ball will replay this information for you again if you ask.

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synapse_glitch
2008-06-26 08:25 am UTC (link)

I uh, the Long Coats are quite the bad bunch to run into, and if these folks are just as bad, then I would hate to see what they are capable of.

And the lack of bloodshed is a good thing, but wars don't tend to be bloodless from what little I can pull from my empty noggin. And trying to remember is not exactly one of my specialties I'm afraid, but I do try even though I know it is fleeting at best.

So wait... Is this strange thing a machine then? Who is speaking through it?

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	franksunderland 2008-06-22 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron]One more thing.. Mr. Glitch... I mean, Glitch... has some problems with his memory... as you may have noticed... due to his brain being missing. I imagine you can't get his brain back but... maybe there's some way to help him? Because ... well, he's sort of my friend... I hope... and I don't want him to get in trouble.[/Private] (Reply to this) (Thread)

heaven_within
2008-06-23 06:43 am UTC (link)

[Private to Frank] Ah, do not fear! I knew of his circumstances when I first explained it to him - but while he remembered, he consented to come. If I can, I will help him... For now i'm merely patient and continue to have faith in him. He is a good, good man, that Glitch.

But perhaps even in this realm, there is a way he can help himself... There are mysterious things here, after all.[/Private]

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	franksunderland 2008-06-23 08:10 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron]Oh, I know that he's a very good man, and I realize that he... consented to be here. I just worry for him, because even in someone tells him it's not a good idea to go out, well, he might not even remember they said that, if you get my meaning.[/Private] (Reply to this) (Parent)

my_private_life
2008-06-22 11:41 pm UTC (link)

~~This is what I've been trying to say for days...~~

Metatron's right. About remembering our weaknesses and coming together as a team. If we keep going the way we're going.... We're going to be in really bad shape.

We don't have to retaliate when they come after us. I know how...tempting it is, trust me. But it's not going to do any good. We just have to be more careful when we go out, and let people know where we're going to be and how long and things like that.

We can...protect and prepare ourselves without going on the offensive, and without tearing into each other.

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	heaven_within 2008-06-23 05:51 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Henry. Those were very wise words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	my_private_life 2008-06-23 06:36 am UTC (link)
	I just hope people listen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 06:46 am UTC (link)
	I pray they will. Especially when you and others are equally concerned about this. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	bring_god_down 2008-06-23 05:18 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron] Even if this place is safe, those of the other side I believe will continue to lurk, and hurt more of us. How can we even hope to win against them if we're told that the best course of action is to wait, stay in Asgard, and play it safe? (Reply to this) (Thread)

heaven_within
2008-06-23 05:38 am UTC (link)

[Private to Alessa] Winning the trials is what counts, dear Miss Alessa. And even fighting between them...Lucifer and I must stop it when it comes to killing blows - no one is allowed to kill each other. I certainly don't wish for you to stay huddled within Asgard. I want you to feel free to do what you want...but to not risk yourself. Mostly it is those who are behaving rashly and getting hurt that I'm speaking to...but in general, i'm asking everyone to be cautious.

I'm not asking you to hide, unless it is necessary. I'm assuring everyone that Asgard is safe and that those who cannot defend themselves should take advantage of this. Miss Alessa, you're strong. I know very well that you're capable of defending yourself. [/Private]

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	bring_god_down 2008-06-23 06:39 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Metatron] That's all I wanted to know. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	blind_oracle 2008-06-23 06:00 am UTC (link)
	Sir Metatron, it was never my desire to offend or upset you and your sacred rites. I worry for the others - those, who, in their haste to prove themselves come back embittered and defeated. As I will attempt to maintain a state of impartiality, I still remain apprehensive about their foolhardy decisions. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 06:20 am UTC (link)
	Ah, Miss Blythe, do not fear. You haven't offended me...! I wanted to share my concern for the others as well, that is all. If I have injured your heart, please let me know! I would be terribly sorry for such a thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blind_oracle 2008-06-23 07:03 am UTC (link)
	Oh, dear, you have not injured my heart - do not for one second believe so! My greatest concern is for the wellbeing of the others, and I could never be wronged by you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 07:30 am UTC (link)
	Oh, thank the Lord. Yes...I'm very concerned for everyone, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blind_oracle 2008-06-23 07:40 am UTC (link)
	I have heard of a grand array of ideas from the others. Whose insight are you most trusting of at this time? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-24 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Most trusting of...? I do not think I'll be more trusting of anyone...? I simply listen to those who share their voice and give them the attention they deserve? All ideas should be considered. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	boy_silhouette 2008-06-23 06:26 am UTC (link)
	I'm llllearning! I'm learning.....t-t-to defend myself. Sooo you d-d-don't have to...nnnnfear for me, be angry of me. Sssad of me. T-To help, in my wordsss, to be blinding. Alight. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 06:45 am UTC (link)
	I am not angry at all, Dorian. I am truly sorry to have made you believe that I am. I am only...extremely concerned for everyone. I don't want you to be hurt when it can be prevented, that's all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boy_silhouette 2008-06-23 07:22 am UTC (link)
	Nnnot angry now, but also so never. Never, yesss? Such a long time, b-b-but I koh am the forever nnnnever. I wisssh for prevention, too. Too...for those who c-c-cannot prevent of themselves. It is why I amm here. Yes? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-23 07:29 am UTC (link)
	It is...difficult for me to feel anger, Dorian. I hope that you never see such a thing in my eyes, or hear it in my voice. Yes, Dorian. I believe in you and I know that you will be helpful here. You are a treasure here, something precious to all of us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boy_silhouette 2008-06-23 07:50 am UTC (link)
	Oh? Is this ssso? Me too, I think. B-But I'm...nnot quite sure. And me neither. It would...nnnot hmm be right. Gawww, I only m-mean well. I lllike the people...here. They are illuuuuminating! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	shabby_doll 2008-06-23 08:11 am UTC (link)
	[Private to Asgard]Thank you for the advice, Metatron. It's... comforting to know you're on top of things, and to be reminded that inside Asgard we're safe.[/Private] (Reply to this)

	pyro_madness 2008-06-23 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	Metatron, I get what you're sayin', and I'm sorry if I... Er, well, I'm sorry. There're no good excuses, so... [Audible sigh]. I dunno. Anger gets the best of me sometimes, and... but that's an excuse. I'm working on that. Thank you, for, y'know, helping and taking care of us when ya can. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heaven_within 2008-06-24 03:00 am UTC (link)
	It is alright. I am not angry at what anyone has done, only hopeful that we can all be more cautious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pyro_madness 2008-06-24 03:11 am UTC (link)
	I hope so, too. We'll learn... eventually. (Reply to this) (Parent)